Whenever i met her, she was mostly silent. It will be couple of minutes when one of us would break the silence. It was not that we did’t have anything to talk about; there was a lot to discuss even after all the numerous conversations we had with each other but not in person. The technology enabled many easy modes of conversation but there was something which was left out in those words – it was the touch of reality. Either we were scared of seeing each other in our true sense or we had become different person while not-in-person. Those texts are as real as it can be but it is nowhere close to listening someone in person. I had to break this routine. I had to live a single life not the dual life where i would always be looking to fulfilling the expectations of one while losing out on the other. It is not easy. It is just life in these times where virtuality has penetrated into our lives so deep that it is difficult to differentiate it from reality. The feelings may be real but there is nothing to remember of those texts. A single real conversation still dominates the time of being with her. That is how i know why i should stop those conversations because it is just a release from the world of sadness and not the happiness. Not being sad doesn’t mean one is happy. To be happy is to be accepted in person.

ThE InsidE WaR