Let me see how I can explain this. You are in space for a while; just floating, doing nothing and somehow you are not dead yet you can feel the variations of space temperatures. Then something pulls you in a direction and now you enter the atmosphere. You can feel the gravity in your bones and muscles but more than that you can feel the fear of death even though you are not dying. You are falling at a very high speed with your face towards the sky. You scream but the voice is lost and no one is there to hear you. Maybe you see an aeroplane flying by and you feel your helplessness as well as anger of no one trying to help you. You understand that it is futile to do so and you apologize to them in your heart. Their apathy now begins to haunt you. You won’t be able to think whether they are able to see you or not. Slowly you are trying to convince yourself that the end is near and this will all be over. You start to give in. You are closer to the surface. You can feel that as your eyes are closing. Bam! It hits like hell so much so that you cannot feel your body now. The surface is not stable, it is moving. The too much light is transformed into pitch black darkness. It feels like water. It touches you everywhere. Now you are sinking below. You try to gasp for air but there isn’t any available. It’s cold all of a sudden. You open your eyes but you can’t see anything. It’s dark everywhere, a moonless night and the stars are absent. You feel cold water all around yourself, something like sinking in an ocean in the night. The water slowly enters your body and a magical thing happens. You do not die. Your body is now becoming heavy and it is impossible to pull yourself up. There is no surface in the direction you are going, just an endless space with cold water. You will not be able to think of your family, your friends, your colleagues, your work, your desires, your likes, your dislikes, your memories, all the sensory feelings would simply be absent from your thoughts. The only thing that will plague your mind would be indomitable pain and hurt. All your focus would shift from outside world to deep inside where something is happening, like you are being crushed from inside. Maybe for a moment you can ask yourself about what is happening to you but you will not be able to maintain a conscious network of thoughts. All of your senses will come to die but you will not, at least not yet. The barriers of your imagination would be shattered and you will feel everything in its extreme. The concept of past and future would cease to exist and you will live only in the small window of present fighting for your survival. Now I ask of you, do you think that moment will pass by itself? Can you come out of it by your own self-will, self-esteem or concentration power? The world as you know which allows you to see yourself as you, would not be there anymore. All the good or bad things would be taken out and you will be left with total state of anxiety without any knowledge of what is happening to you or what can you do to not be in such state of mind. All your left out energy would be spend not in making any physical effort rather trying to hold on to even a fraction of serotonin presence in your brain. You might try to shift your thought between the mental and physical trauma with trying to push yourself in bringing out some sort of gratification through any means possible. Remember this is not happening really but all this goes in your mind. The stimulation of physical response to emotions or emotional response to physical acts, that is all what will left for you. Now ask yourself what you really wanted to ask and not from me but from yourself with putting yourself in this scenario. I am sure that you will be able to contemplate or decipher the world of a depressed mind.

I have come a long way from being arrogant of having the ability to deal with depression to the point in empathically understanding the unsaid unvoiced struggles of one’s mind. I am sure that lives can be saved if we help each other.